I thought I knew everything there was to know about having safe sex. Always carry a condom, and never, ever get pregnant.
But l guess what l needed more than a dental dam was a mental dam because I just can’t stop thinking about you.
People love to talk about how to avoid STIs of the physical kind, but nobody likes to talk about the STIs that can destroy your mind.”
The ones that can have you tossing and turning at 3AM, racking your brain and constantly wondering
“Was I not good enough for him?”
“Was this supposed to be a one-time thing or, my favorite one..?”
How could l be so stupid to let him in..
My sister always told me that my body was a temple , so never let in a man that does not take appropriate time to worship you because
“You are a goddess that is truly worth sacrificing for.”
And l only wish l had taken the time to listen to her more often
But instead, l only choose to listen to you.
And that would have been okay, if it weren’t for the fact that your love for me was so untrue.
Then deceptions turn into matter of perceptions and everything started to turn out to be fifty questions, only that at the end of the day, l was left guessing.
And this asshole kept testing my patience. But my momma said “patience was a virtue” and you said, “baby I’d never want to hurt you…”
But You Did..
You fucked me over and left my brain impregnated and left me with your bastard babies called memories.
It was all fun and games when I let you up in me, but now you won’t even take joint custody.
But it took two texts to get you through my door to indulge in sex, but let me text you about child support.
Just an honest why?
Because l will never reduced myself again to 2 AM whore,
Cripping out of windows and sneaking through back doors..
I, will never reduce myself to some side chick, just another side dish at the kitchen table for you to pick at while you wait for your main antre
I am a person, I have feelings and emotions that have a right to be protected.
And just having a Vagina should not make me any less deserving of your time or someone to be disrespected.
So if you’re going to choose to be with her over me, well…I guess you have to do what’s best, then.
I just wish that we had taken the time to use both mental and physical protection.
And have a conversation about what this all really meant…before we had sex.